Troubled Teens - Troubled Teens
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Shelly from I'm in Hell - Fri Jun 6 22:13:12 2008
I need help. It involves me and my family, but mainly me. My mother and father got pregnant when she was 18/19 and my father was 17. they then got married but neither asked the other. They hated each other from day one, but my mother tried to make it work. My father would beat my oldest sister and molested her, I don't know if he raped her or not, but he might have. He molested me but I'm not sure how badly. I don't know what he did to my other older sister. He lied to, manipulated and brainwashed my little brother. He turned him against us and has been trying to since my brother was probably 4 maybe 5. He basically abandoned us kids. He tried to brainwash me against my mother like he did my brother but I wasn't so stupid or naive. I knew what had been going on. I was very bright, intelligent and observant as a child. He has done horrible things to us and has cheated on and lied to my mother. My mom had to yell, scream, beg, plead, make bargains and promises to my father just for him to have anything to do with his son. We are now, my oldest sis-21, other sis-20, me-18 and my brother-16. My parents finally got divorced back in March 2007. He didn't tell anyone he was divorced before he was seen in public with, now, his new wife. They have done nothing but start and cause problems for me and my family. He continued to lie and manipulate my brother and my brother believes him and is so stupid and naive. They keep causing us problems and won't leave us alone. He spread lies about my mother and broke every promise he'd ever made to her. My mom's not perfect, I know, and they were both not the best parents. My dad never even tried to be a parent. He told my mom "he wasn't a family man". He has done so much to me and my sisters to hurt us so much. We are all all screwed up. My sister ended up turning into a lesbian because of what he did and for other guys in her life. My other sis thinks she has to have a guy and sleeps with any guy who she goes out with her. I'm so, so, so screwed up. I can't say all the things he did, but I can't stand to be touched, even by my own family. I can't ever talk about my problems with anyone. I can't open up to anyone. I hate myself with so much passion I'd rather be dead. I've cut my wrist several times but never enough to do horrible damage, only leave scars. I'm so messed up mentally and emotionally. I can't say it all now... My brother's been caught up in the middle of things and has been lied to and blames me for everything just like my dad has been doing. I hate myself and just want to either die or just forget it all. I can't take this crap anymore. This has been going on ever since I can remember, since I was just a small child of 4. I'm getting desperate to find a way out of it all and am afraid I'll do something stupid. The has really hit the fan now. Please, please help me. I need some advice. I need some help. I need someone.
Comment #1 Kay's Mom from Bipolar, PA - Tue Jul 8 08:12:35 2008
My dear sweet boy...please...I urge you...seek treatment...the thoughts of suicide...the mutilation...all scream volumes of cries for help....If you must...go to your local hospital ER...tell them you want to commit yourself...a voluntary 302...they will get you the right help...
Comment #2 keyech from catalonia - Tue Aug 19 17:07:32 2008
Hi!First of all, sorry for my English as I'm making lots of mistakes but I'll try to do my best so that you can understand what I'm wanting to say. I had to live a similiar history than yours, but in our case were both my mother and father who were mistreating us phisically and psychologically as well. My mother also got pregnant when she was 18 and I think she never loved my father and I was the first baby (we're 3: me (30), my brother (28) and my baby brother (21). It was terrible living at home, I could say I've been in hell! Fortunatelly, I could scape when I was 19 and I started a new life with someone (now is my husband). What happened is that I stood fighting all the time while I was at my parent's home, I also tried to suicide without success (fortunatelly) and I also felt I was nothing. I had no self-esteeme. Some years ago, as I didn't have to fight against anything as everything in my life was okay (I have a good husband who treats me like a queen, I've a good job and I'm quite well paid for it, I've got my own house, and there's nobody mistreating me), I started to feel very bad and now I've a mental illness called neurosis. I've to take 9 pills every day and I'm in psychiatric treatment for almost 4 years. My advice is you seek treatment also, as it's very necessary you can explain what you're keeping inside and it's causing you such pain (we both now it's not your fault, but you should seek help). And don't think about comitting suicide or causing you more pain, and neither that you're nothing because it's not true. You've had a very terrible problem and you've to solve it. The only thing you can do is to follow a psychiatric treatment which will help you a lot. Good luck. Kisses
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