| Finally Free It took a lot and a long time for me to finally give it up, but I think I have this time. My husband, son, and I were living with my mother in her very large house and paying rent, the cable/phone/internet bill, and for over half of the groceries (which we prepared). My niece, a 350 pound welfare recipient who has lost custody of her children, has a husband in prison, and was kicked out of her parents' home, is also there. My brother, the hero/bully is using his POA over mom to evict us in January. We REALLY needed to save that money. When I tried to convince him, he laughed at me, was hateful to me, ignored me, insulted me . . . you name it. My 15yo son, fed up of hearing him talk to me like this for years, said something, I don't remember what, and my brother lunged at him. Because of the beatings I received as a child, I have never spanked, slapped, or othewise used corporal punishment with him. I'm not going to let someone else do it! I shoved him and grabbed his shoulders. He grabbed my hair and twisted my neck. I found out a few days later that I had a sprained shoulder. It is very painful.I called the police to see if there was anything I could do. They said "technically" I started hit by shoving him. Odd, you can't protect your child, isn't it? My mom is swearing I fell back on the stove myself, he didn't touch me. Of course she would defend him if he beheaded me in the kitchen. My lowlife, drugged up niece may have been involved, I couldn't see. But my son, who never lies and has no reason to lie about this, says it was my brother. We have found a home to rent. Cameron claims he never wants to see my mother again. And he's a pretty stubborn kid. He's disgusted with my whole family. I feel torn. I am still hanging on to a thread, just a thread of that desire to please them. I know that I cannot, that I never have and I never will. The love I received was from my dad, who died 13 years ago. Now mom, not listening to any sound advice, is deeding the house to my brother so he can borrow the money to make the repairs that are needed, which are minor. It's just a scam to get the house. There goes everything that my father worked for his whole life. I so want to be free from this, but I don't know if I will ever get over their lack of acceptance of me. I've let it control me for 45 years. I need to let it go and move on. My son is willing; it isn't fazing him. I just need some support along the way. |
